Posted on Monday, February 16, 2009 at 4:48 AM
fuck u bitches...seriously i dunno y we have to do the stupid cheers... haiis... maths was retarded... test was hell... finish test lerh down there plae wif jilong... haiis...dun have the fucking mood to tok abt the happy things todae... hell was it todae... recess... bloody hell tt JQ come hum guai lan me... seriously im not in a good mood y everyone come jibai hum lan me?!fire drill was crappy... helped miss lim wif that stupid fire drill thing... run here run there like some kind of idiot... at least maybe did help me lose some weight... haiis... maybe u think that it wasnt fun to be on e field... lemme tell u... mie job was worst... nbm... maybe u think that its a fire drill... but they actually did use a real fire...dropped my freaking glasses from 3rd floor to 1st floor... glasses neber break, but lens flew off and i cant find where it is alr...lunch i alr feeling damned outright unhappy... nbm...bio lesson... make an insulting remark which dunno y suddenly came out of my mouth... sorrie miss wong... din mean it... BUT Y THE HELL DID U BLOODY HELL CALL ME GO UP AND TEACH THE WHOLE FUCKING CLASS?!started raining in e middle of bio... fucked up... totally cant understand hw come my dae was supposed to be so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so FUCKING BAD?!finished bio... bloody hell AKY come into our class and down there bloody jibai guai lan us... neber even sae properly last time then now come fucking jibai quai lan us... chair and vice chair neber take neber mind... they neber go check out prices neber mind... FUCK UP BLOODY HELL WHEN DID THE PROBLEM COME TO US? NEBER EBEN INFORM US GO CHECK... PLZ LARH... NOWADAYS KIDS NEBER TAKE THEIR INITIATIVE UP TO SO HIGH STANDARD LIAOZ CAN NOT?went home... mother angrie wif me... becoz i neber bring out umbrella... nbm.. sorrie i wrong okie..? wan yong smsed me tt jian qing was bullying her... jibai tt jian qing tmr u gt it...i dunno wut i did to make girls some guai lan me until lidat... seriously i dunno wut i did in my past life... to agitate so many girls... or rather actually caused to many girls to get the wrong meaning of me... seriously there are sometimes u can joke around... but to me U BLOODY HELL BETTER NOT PLAE WIF MY FRIENDSHIP RELATIONS HORH... U NOE HU THE HELL U ARE... EBEN IF U HAVE BEEN THRU SUCH A BETRAYAL BY FRENS DOESNT MEAN THAT I DIN RITE..? PLZ LARH! GROW UP FROM THAT CAN OR NNOT? U ARE NOT YOUNG ANYMORE... SEC 1 ALR CAN..? U TOT WUT? PRIMARY 1 ARH??? "EEYER! U SO BAD! DUN WAN FREN U ALR LARH...!" GROW UP LARH... IF U DUN WAN TO NOE ME SO MUCH IN E FIRST PLACE? THEN Y DID U EBEN WANT TO MAKE FRENS WIF ME IN E FIRST PLACE? INTERFERE WIF UR PRIVATE LIFE? HELOO? PPL WAN HELP U OSO CANT? PLZ LARH DUN GUAI LAN ME CAN NOT? I SERIOUSLY DUN HAVE SO MUCH TIME TO PLAE WIF U... FWEN OR NOT FWEN, THINK ABT IT URSELF... I DUN WAN TO TOK SO MUCH LIAOZ... DUN EBER EBER EBER TOY AROUND WIF MIE RELATIONSHIP WIF U I TELL U... TO ME FRIENDSHIP IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPT TO ME... MESS WIF IT, I WILL SERIOUSLY MESS U UP...
I SEROUSLIE DUN FEEL LIKE LIVING ANYMORE... PPL AROUND ME IS LIKE OBLIVIOUS TO HU I REALLIE AM... MAYBE I'VE NEBER REALLIE SHOWN IT IN SCHOOL B4... HAIIS... I'VE THOUGHT TO MIESELF TODAE... MAYBE FOR THE MORE THEN 7 YEARS OF SCHOOLING AND MESSING AROUND, JOKING, MAYBE IM JUZ WANTING ATTENTION... MAYBE NOT... I DUNNO... MAYBE I SHUDN'T HAVE BEEN SUCH A JOKER IN CLASS AT ALL... SOMETIMES I REALLY ENVY PPL HU CAN KEEP REALLIE QUIET IN CLASS... DOESNT LEARN BAD... AND GET GOOD GRADES... I REALLIE WAN THAT... BUT I DUNNO HW TO CONTROL MIESELF... AFTER THE MORE THAN 1 YEAR OF SCHOOLING IN XMSS.. TO TELL THE FUCKING TRUTH, I DUN EBEN NOE IF I HAVE REALLIE FOUND A BEST FREN YET..? OR MAYBE EBEN THOSE WHOM I CAN COUNT AS FRENS... SOME PPL JUZ SCREW UP MY LIFE AS IF IM JUZ A IECE OF SHIT... I'VE SEEN PPL OF MANY TYPES... BUT SOMETIMES COMPARED TO REAL FRIENDS NOW IN SEC SCHOOL... I THINK THAT MAYBE THE PAI KIA STYLE FRENS OF MINE IN PRI SCH ARE STILL BETTER THAN THOSE IN SEC SCHOOL....
MAYBE TO SOME PPL IM REALLIE THRASH... SOME ARE DIAMONDS... SOME ARE BLOOD BROS... I DUNNO... I CANT UNDERSTAND Y AM I HABING THIS KIND OF FEELIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone save me... i dun wan to die in my own world of loneliness... i dunno if i shud shw my real self in school... maybe i shud go bak to emo-ing... leave the world of laughter aside and study like a dog... or something else... i dunno... i reallie feel like dying...
to some ppl,
life is a movie.
to some,
life is a joke.
to some,
life is a journal.
to me...
to me...
to me...
life is treasure...
laughter, joy, happiness, sadness, bitterness, solemness, emo-ness...
every aspects of life are treasures...
family, frens, love, kids...
these things are those which are my heart... without em...
there is no need for me to live...
life will go on as usual...
whatever way it should be...
but i believe...
ppl do have the power to change their fate...
i will...